Part 2 – The Venetian Complication

“Ciao,” said Bianchi.
“Ciao,” I replied.
“S-ciào vostro,” he grinned.
I am your slave.
He had discovered that ciao was derived from an old Venetian expression and couldn’t resist repeating it whenever he had the opportunity.
Venice woke early and seemed determined to wake us with it. The vibrating hum of delivery boats bounced off the brick façades of the Renaissance buildings, followed by the dull thunk of their hulls against the wooden mooring piles. Then came the metallic rattle of carrelli being pushed along the wooden decks.
“Slaves don’t sleep in the same bed as their masters.”
“But I have a good master and I must surrender to his wishes,” Bianchi replied cheekily.
My phone vibrated.
A message from Cola.
My mother is furious with you both. She knew that you would sleep together.
I smiled.
Bianchi crawled to the end of the bed and opened the curtains. He was naked, unlike the night before, and it was the first time I had seen him that way. He turned towards the window, completely oblivious to the effect he was having on me.
He had got his wish. Almost.
I had remembered Signora Bruschi’s warnings and allowed nothing more than a few kisses and cuddles. Nothing beyond that. Bianchi had no idea how much willpower it had taken not to give in to him.
But he was playing the long game and, for now, seemed perfectly happy.
Alas, the inevitable would happen eventually.
Sunrise had brought a soft morning light and a rising canal fog that would soon burn away.
“I shall make coffee,” Bianchi declared as he scrambled down the spiral staircase to the kitchen below.
I stayed in bed and closed my eyes.
I listened to the patter of his feet across the terrazzo, followed by the rattling of cups. Then came the sound of the French doors opening onto the stone balcony.
“Cazzo!”
He scuttled back inside.
“I did not know there were apartments overlooking us… and you can see everything.”
I peered through the newel posts and watched him grab a large towel and wrap it around himself.
I am going to struggle here, I thought.
The message from Charlie came at midday.
Ponte delle Guglie. 8pm?
I sent a thumbs-up.
Nothing more.
We shall see you then, he replied.
We.
My mind was made up.
I would definitely be taking Bianchi with me.
When I told him, I detected a nervousness that hadn’t been there earlier. But, as he explained, Signora Bruschi had sent him to accompany me and he would respect her wishes.
We resisted the urge to kick tourists into the nearest canal, seemingly oblivious to the fact that we were tourists too.
We spent the day wandering narrow calli, crossing little bridges and drinking too much coffee outside cafés.
It was a way of killing time.
I was apprehensive about seeing Charlie again. The outcome was uncertain. Was this going to be closure for both of us, or the beginning of a new chapter?
I was mindful that I had instigated our enforced absence, although I hadn’t intended it to turn out the way it had. Not for the first time, I had ruined something that, on the surface at least, had seemed special.
But I had forgotten that Charlie was stubborn. And if he believed he had been wronged, nothing would alter his mind.
An observer might have regarded the whole mess as six of one and half a dozen of the other.
Quite true.
Charlie had inexplicably posed naked for a French gay magazine, confident that I would never find out.
On the other hand, I had slept with his brother.
And that, it appeared, was a far greater sin.
The other question I kept asking myself was whether we were still in love with each other.
There had been an unwillingness on both sides to resolve the mess and move on. Months apart had only strengthened our positions.
Part of me hoped that our meeting would lead to reconciliation.
But another part told a different story.
That story involved Thomas in Paris.
The uncertainty wasn’t helped by Bianchi, who had become uncharacteristically subdued. His early-morning brightness had gradually faded until he slipped into an awkward silence.
It wasn’t until we were heading back that I understood why.
We had reached the end of a ramo — a dead-end alley overlooking the Rio de la Pleta — and stopped to watch the boats passing below.
“There is a boy at work called Cesco,” Bianchi began.
He paused.
“He doesn’t say much. When I first met him, I tried to make conversation. He simply nodded. Now he sometimes smirks and occasionally speaks. We are slowly getting there. I think he trusts me.”
I tried to understand where the conversation was heading.
“The other staff say that Cesco is a handsome boy. Such a shame about the spots. They wish he’d do something better with his hair. They want him to be more sociable. They often lose patience with him.
“But when he smirks, they think he is smiling. My friends say, ‘How do you get him to do that?’”
Bianchi sat on the stone step and rested his elbows on his knees.
“And so they send me to collect the orders. I stand and wait. I make small talk. Sometimes I get a reaction.
“I tell my colleagues that I enjoy the challenge.
“‘You’re always so calm and collected,’ they say. ‘What’s your secret? Why doesn’t he speak to us? Why do you make time for his bad habits?’
“The answer is easy,” Bianchi continued. “I like handsome people. I can do spots. I can accept bad haircuts.
“I look at him in his black jeans, black T-shirt and black apron. Everything about him is black.
“But underneath all that black there is something attractive.”
I sat beside him, suddenly unsure that I was going to like what came next.
“What is that?”
“I imagine him standing behind his counter,” Bianchi replied. “I imagine him transformed in my mind, and suddenly I can wait patiently.”
I didn’t know how to respond.
L’erba del vicino è sempre più verde, he said sadly.
I tried to translate it.
The grass is always greener.
It was Bianchi’s way of sending a warning shot, and I was determined not to react.
“I cannot wait forever, Miles.”
One of my failings is that I sometimes fail to see what is right in front of me.
Bianchi was in love.
He had quietly persevered, waiting for me to return his affection.
I wanted to tell him that I loved him too.
But I would become a liar if my reunion with Charlie ended positively.
Life can be complicated.
Charlie.
Thomas.
Bianchi.
They all had a hold on me.
“I am not looking forward to meeting your boyfriend,” he added.
“Ex-boyfriend,” I corrected.
“But what if you decide to get back together? Where does that leave me? I might never see you again.”
He bit his lip.
“I am not sure that I would want to see you again if you did.”
“If it makes you feel any better, you don’t have to come with me.”
“I will come,” he decided. “But it is difficult for me to accept.”
“I know you have feelings, Bianchi, and I’m sorry that you’re caught up in all this. But please realise that the grass isn’t always greener on the other side.”
“Then tell me there is hope. Tell me I am not wasting my time. If not, for my own sanity, I must look somewhere else.
“Even if it is the boy with spots and a bad haircut.”
I laughed, not unkindly, and squeezed his arm.
“You are not wasting your time, Bianchi.”
I wanted to hold him.
I wanted nothing more.
And he would gladly have let me.
But then the nose of a gondola appeared and glided silently into view.
Three women of various ages and sizes looked startled to see us sitting on the steps. Then they looked at us with curiosity.
Standing behind them, a young gondolier made light work of propelling the boat along.
“Buonasera,” Bianchi called.
And the gondola disappeared around the corner.








