Pow, pow, pow! These are meant to be fireworks and they once were. Bang, bang, bang! A spectacular entrance for the drugged and inebriated. A beautiful girl on each arm. A kiss on both cheeks. Forceful hands down my boxers. A handsome young guy who is the shit of the whole world. Suck my dick  because you want to. A showman, a gigolo, a fucking dickhead. I am desirable. I do no fucking wrong.  I ask the two girls if they have a brother that I can shag. Say yes and make me happy. Everything I ever wanted… high… so bloody high… soaring… looking down… eagle of the dance floor… hawk of wonder and disappointment. Pow, pow, pow!.. shattered dreams… shattered lives. Thirty years bye bye. Lonely, penniless, fucking old, a closed roller shutter and a damp empty building. Is this the right place? A shit full of memories. Cry for me and I’ll join you.